Yuck

Um, constipation is NOT a good thing.  Nuff said!!!!!

Thyroid Progress

Been back on my thyroid meds for 3 days now.  I have energy, don't feel so bad, and lost 5 pounds.  It's been nice to have my metabolism  back working.  Today has been the best day so far.  Fingers crossed it gets even better.  I almost felt good enough to make it to the gym.  I'm thinking Monday might be the day.

First Doctor Visit

Met with my doctor yesterday.  Went through all the normal  stuff you get at your first visit.  A couple new things though.   Dr. Richter did a vaginal ultrasound.  Never had one of those before.  Very cool to see the peanut, and it's heart beating.  Second, she told me all about this new barrage of blood tests they do at 10 weeks to detect birth defects, down syndrome, etc.  I declined the tests.  What does it matter if my baby has a defect.  I will always choose to keep it, love it and support it.  Why do I need to worry about it for longer.  

So other than those couple things, everything else was the same.  Each nurse I interacted with kept asking me if this was my 1st baby.  They all looked a little shocked when I said it was my 4th and with the same husband.  I got a little chuckle.  I notice that about a lot of people when I announce it's my 4th.  I guess I crossed the threshold into the big family category.  

I was put on my thyroid medication again, pretty aggressively.  I'm hoping it is a big help.  I also was prescribed Zofram for my nausea.  It seems to help in the morning but once the late afternoon hits, I'm done.  And then Dr. Richter hit me with, 'the nausea seems to peak at 10 weeks'  

What? I'm only 8 weeks.  Dang it.  But then she hit me with: "studies show that women with bad nausea seem to miscarry less"

Ok, I'll take it.  

I'll suck it up and crawl through it.

Every time I hang over the kitchen sink, Sophie says: 'momma, you throw up gen(again)'. Sydney has repeatedly offered to do dishes.  Nico keeps praying for the baby in my tummy and kisses it.  Nick has helped the best he can.  He has been really good about getting me whatever I need at the store.  He's a man's man.  I can't really ask for too much. So I'm not going to.  

Blood Pressure, protein, bloodsugar, everything else: fine.  

I am going back in three weeks to monitor the meds and make sure everything is on track.  

I love my doctor.   She is wonderful.  I had her with Sophie and am so excited to see her again.  I love her.  Did I already say that?

weight confessions

Ok, so i know this is normal.  It happens to millions of women.   But it's still driving me nuts.   The Weight Gain.  When Sydney was born, I weighed something like 30 pounds lighter than now.  Nico, 20 pounds, Sophie 10 pounds.  You get it.  The perpetual weight that never comes off.  So to begin this this pregnancy I am at my heaviest weight to date. Ever. In my life. Here is my confession, I am beginning this pregnancy at 165 pounds.  Wow that hurts to say.    It hurts to admit I had gotten to that point.   Now I have to be on my best behavior and try not to gain more than 20 in hopes that I can loose it quickly.  

I didn't breastfeed Sophie and I think that was a detriment to my losing the weight after she was born.  I am going to try with this one.  Although I don't know how my breast implants will play out letting me nurse.  I hope they don't get in the way.

I want to exercise but I am so flippin sick I can barely get off the couch.  I am hoping I start feeling better so I can exercise.  I do miss it.    

My thryroid is also out of control right now.  As confirmed by blood work done last week.  So hoping that my metabolism will kick in a little more once I get back on my Synthroid.  

And my diet needs to be taken into consideration.  It's crap.  I am planning on changing it as soon as I can eat.  

I plan on documenting my weight gain, eating and exercising progress on this blog.  

Fingers Crossed.

This is all i want tonight.  Oh, man I want it.  Good thing Mr. G went out and got me some.  What a good hubby, especially when he didn't have to and the grocery store is far.   

Next, I can't get over how heightened my sense of smell is.  I can smell everything.  I don't remember this before.  Every little thing.  It's a little annoying.  I don't know if I like it that much.  I'm hoping there is still some silver lining to this super power I seem to have now.  Mostly I smell the bad things that make me feel sick, i would like to smell the yummy things that make my mouth water.

sick, sick, sick

yuck is all I have to say.  i am not happy about the icky feeling that is constantly grumbling in my tummy.    not feelin to fantastic.  that's all i have to say right now.   

What was I thinking?

Not sure I'm ready to do this. Life isn't too great right now. Kind of wishing I wasn't bringing a child into it.